I most likely will be gone for a bit as I will be keeping a family member company for reasons due to a medical incident with another family member. I'm sorry to all I have RPs with but family comes first, especially with their health.
My luck has taken a great turn. I was able to get my mental state back on track and steady myself again but I also started having good luck with other things in life. I have a viewing tomorrow for a place I was looking to rent and I only applied yesterday. For clarification it's hard to find an affordable place to rent in my town. Along with this I've had great luck with many other things lately and I'm ecstatic
If anything it's made my mental health worse instead of better. Truth be told this all took a while to put together and I've laid here a few hours now trying write this all AND to have it make sense. I feel I failed at that a couple times here.
My life is odd and strange. My counselor said I should put a bit more into what I like and what makes me happy and I've realized that, honestly, I like being here on this site just talking and whatnot and it makes me happy to have this. The fact that some of those here I've seen to be great, kind, caring and compassionate people just makes it better. I've been putting my focus in the wrong places.
To those I have RPs with I am sorry. I'm not going to be on at all for while because I'm going to be working on my mental health. It's been hard for me to pull together even just a single coherent thought without my mind causing Armageddon on itself.
Well I've been having a few days of random bouts of depressive states that have been leaving my mind somewhat crippled in a sense. I think it's starting to stop and go away in the last couple hours today. May or may not be getting back to myself.
looking back both on here and in real life I see that I've come a long way and I've gotten better and stronger for it.if I was to choose one person of all on this site that helped me the most I could't and wouldn't choose cause you've all helped me so much and I can't begin to thank you all.
I never even saw him for a week before he passed. He sat there in that bed, sick and dieing. I couldn't get to him and say farewell, say goodbye. To tell him I loved him and that he was a great grandfather.
I've been having an emotional day apparently... My friend signed up earlier and when some stuff went down I kinda freaked easier than normal, I've gotten dramatic way too much over stuff and to top it all off... I Started remembering my grandfather, who was with me for alot of my life but died from cancer just the other year. I had a silent moment of crying on this last walk to internet, just having memories come up.