Well I've been having a few days of random bouts of depressive states that have been leaving my mind somewhat crippled in a sense. I think it's starting to stop and go away in the last couple hours today. May or may not be getting back to myself.
looking back both on here and in real life I see that I've come a long way and I've gotten better and stronger for it.if I was to choose one person of all on this site that helped me the most I could't and wouldn't choose cause you've all helped me so much and I can't begin to thank you all.
I never even saw him for a week before he passed. He sat there in that bed, sick and dieing. I couldn't get to him and say farewell, say goodbye. To tell him I loved him and that he was a great grandfather.
I've been having an emotional day apparently... My friend signed up earlier and when some stuff went down I kinda freaked easier than normal, I've gotten dramatic way too much over stuff and to top it all off... I Started remembering my grandfather, who was with me for alot of my life but died from cancer just the other year. I had a silent moment of crying on this last walk to internet, just having memories come up.