Xanubis The Hyena
  • I remember being so proud to 100% the first Lego Star Wars back in the 00's, solving the puzzles and buying all the stuff. It took me forever. And now I come back after at least a decade since playing it, and do it again in just two nights, granted nights, not even playing it during the day hardly. Little kid me sucked. There was only one level where I had trouble finding the secrets, even then it took me an hour.
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    negativecharge.
    don't have any of those games anymore i think.. having given away my older consoles, or throwing away as they broke
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Rip Negative. I grew up with the first Lego Star Wars (the one with episodes I - III only, plus one bonus mission in IV) plus the first Lego Batman, and I played both to death. It's been at least since the very beginning of the 2010s the last time I've played either. I started playing Batman a few nights ago, but one of the missions freezes. So Star Wars instead. It's crazy how much smarter I've gotten either way.
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    Leslie
    Yeah, all the Lego games were always the best. They were a big part of my childhood
    Who am I anymore? Why do I care about people?
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    Leslie
    I think you need to set goals for yourself. You may feel better once you achieve those goals
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Maybe. I spend so much time hurting because I feel like I'm meaningless and just want to feel special to someone, meanwhile I'm 22 and still legitimately don't know what I want out of life besides seeking another. My only real drive to find someone I matter to, really matter to, and hunker down with them and help them with whatever goals and desires they may have, but have none of my own, besides them.
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    Leslie
    That doesn't seem like it would be a healthy way of living although I do the same. It's always good to have your own goals apart from other people
    So quarantine officially begins in my state in about 15 minutes. And absolutely nothing will change about my daily life. I'm still going to game and never go outside anyway.
    My heart is doing a weird thing again, where it starts feeling hot, beats weakly, and feels like it's wavering. Along with feeling like it's dripping or melting. It happens when seeing particular art that evokes memories or feelings in me, seeing artifacts of my past, or seeing an ex. Or being reminded of them. A number of things causes it, and I feel like it's a health concern. I feel sick inside, and depressed.
    All I ever did was try to help a broken soul, and was met first with being a shadow, now with hatred. Suppose something about caring and trying for others makes me a bad person. I regret nothing other than my weak heart; I saw what was right and did my best to see to it. I'm sorry I had to go and fuck everything up. This is why I pushed you, because I wasn't stable enough. I knew this was going to happen.
    ForgottenAce
    ForgottenAce
    you really are going this far for the most minor of misunderstandings, aren't you?
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    What was there to misunderstand?
    I struggle with a massive body crisis. I'm a guy, one who mostly identifies as gender neutral, fluctuating from one to the other. But overall, would rather be a girl, if they had the choice. A sex change is out of the question, due to the drama it would cause with family, but I struggle to accept my body. I'm unattractive, and that's besides gender. Either way, it doesn't match the way I see myself. I reject it.
    It's a strange feeling, watching a character you've come to be fond of die at the conclusion of a story. I'm sad, but also I'm like thank you, that's what I wanted the whole time anyway. Just kill me for real. I've died enough times getting to this point.
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    ...Or not? The ending turns out to be ambiguous whether I'm dead or not. MY PURGATORY CONTINUES.
    I think I'm just going to take a haitus. I'll probably hop online once in a blue moon to check on things, but I question my purpose in staying around. The people I await may never return, I don't do big roleplays, I'm not really active in most forums...there's not much for me. On top of being a third wheel. And so I will retreat to Discord, mostly. In a time of feeling disheartened, I will retreat to obscurity.
    It's extra infuriating to screw up on the easy things. Pimping missions in GTA: San Andreas are literally just driving back and forth halfway across the city picking up and dropping hookers off, and occassionally killing someone attacking them; it's monotonous more than difficult, yet I'm on my third attempt now because I keep hitting curbs and low ledges and flipping the car like an asshole.
    Super tired, but don't want to sleep. Meanwhile nothing is going on anywhere, and I'm extremely lonely and bored, and sad. Arrrgh. Moments like this are great for the mind. This is insanity.
    Guess I'll jump off a bridge now. I'm done with people for now.
    Trey
    Trey
    why, is something wrong?
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Tired of feeling like I'm never good enough. I feel disposable to everyone who's ever close to me, and it's not a good feeling to have. It hurts. I feel like a play thing that's interesting for a little while, then people move on and I never know why. I get close to people, then they either abandon me, grow to hate me, or I don't feel like a priority to them. It's hitting a breaking point for me.
    Trey
    Trey
    oh, I'm sorry to hear that.
    I forget how rage inducing the menus are in NFS: Underground 2, having been playing the first one like 9,000 times over recently. The constant auto panning to a certain spot every time you click something (while the controls are useless until it takes forever to finish panning, and usually I want to manually look around), and the really slow scrolling in the colors sucks. At least the customization is way better.
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    It's extra infuriating when even after the intial time it pans to something when you click on a category, every time you scroll, it resets the camera angle to some stupid preset spot. Like NO, I want to manually set the camera to X spot and leave it there while I compare, stop resetting the camera angle. It didn't usually do this in U1. It's massively frustrating.
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    I immediately miss just being able to freely move the camera around while doing stuff like looking at headlight options. I don't want the damn angle to reset every time I flip from one headlight to another. It was way more fluid in the first game and felt much more free. Usually the game just had a preset for the initial time you chose the category, not resetting it every time you scroll. Trivial, but triggering.
    I swear my search engine is high all the time.
    Lace
    Lace
    What? Searching random stuff on its own?
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Anything, really. It's so annoying because even when I think the search is as straightforward and dumbed down as possible, and it still brings up a whole slew of unrelated stuff besides like or or two relevant things at best, if it brings up anything relevant at all. That and I can specifically say 1 regarding a game, and it'll bring up stuff relating to the second game, and it's like...holy shit, really...
    You can eat pumpkin pie like pizza... I love that. The taste is great! And goes amazing with whipped cream.
    Xanubis The Hyena
    Xanubis The Hyena
    I don't know about whipped cream. But straight up pumpkin pie by itself, I'll eat a whole one up by myself, easily. No slices for me, I'll eat the whole damn thing if no one else does.
    Lace
    Lace
    Same... It's great... ... Mmmm... ... Pie... ...
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