I like how the AI in Most Wanted 2005 can make sharp corners while barely slowing down, in a car with garbage handling. Meanwhile me in literally the same damn car because I got it in a pink slip, on the same corner I saw them fly through like it was nothing, I have to slow down a ton, use the handbrake, and nitro out of there, and that's considered "nailing it" for me. AI is bullshit, man.
This year I'm turning 21 years old. Looking back at my past reminded me of how naive I used to be way before I was even diagnosed with Autism. Now I feel like a boomer because of everything I've experienced. Losing relatives, having a girlfriend, getting backstabbed, witnessing my parents divorce, moving 3 times, two jobs, experiencing homelessness for two weeks, and now living on my own. Time really does fly.
Too many love songs. So many other stories that could be told in music but they have to play that BS on repeat. Sing about your existential crisis, the horrors of war, or bring awareness to the neglected lives of diverse demographics, not this generic love drivel that creates social pressure to seek someone out and end up with either a bland or abusive family life.
The struggle of being bored/lonely and wanting a good ERP partner, yet at the same time, wanting a friend who's not just a smut zombie. And having met so many of the latter, you don't trust anyone and assume everybody only wants one thing. It's a strange catch 22 to find oneself in.
sometimes when I'm heading to bed I hear my mom's voice saying "Good Night" or my younger sister's voice saying the same thing despite being the only one living in my apartment. It's gotten to the point where my anxiety has caused me to lose weight. I want to be able to talk to someone face to face without having some sort of derogatory comment or remark directed at me.