Thanks, first of all to the admins for letting this frightened wolf in.
And a sheepish hi and uncertain wave to everyone on here.
It's going to be a bit of a journey for me, and frankly I'm excited and terrified to be taking this step.
I sort of suspected that there was something a little 'extra' about how I feel about things. Looking back on it now, I think that it's always been there and I'd shrugged it off as 'a bit weird'.
A couple of weeks ago I'd have described myself as fur-curious but that's evolved as I begin to get more comfortable with the new feelings that are really coming to the surface.
I'm a writer. I normally write in a different genre, but my publisher asked me to take part in an experiment. They sent me a detailed plot outline for a paranormal romance novel featuring a cute werewolf. I'm not going to go into details because:
A) I'm keeping the real me under the radar for now.
B) I think it's a bit rude to come onto a forum talking about my books like a bloody typical writer.
Maybe we can get onto that later when I feel a bit more confident and I've earned trust and respect.
I was a little unsure about this book at first, but oh my I just loved writing about this guy who turns into the most adorable doggo, and how a relationship with the woman he had initially ignored blossomed.
I'd fallen head over heels with the whole thing.
Of course, I'd done my research and found myself stepping ever deeper into the most delightful rabbit hole (no pun intended), discovering breath-taking works such as "Beastars", seeing Mr Peanutbutter in a whole new light, all of that.
What was happening to me? Why was I so bowled over by these characters?
I discovered that there was such a community as 'furries' - wow, so I wasn't the weird one. It wasn't strange that as a kid, I felt an ache in my soul when I saw Falkor the luck dragon in 'Neverending Story', Disney's Foxy Robin Hood... Okay, Bungle the Bear did nothing for me, so we'll let that pass!
Now, in my Fifties, those feelings are re-ignited. And you know what? It's comforting, I found myself smiling randomly at the thought. This is something new and exciting - where is it going to take me?
But to what end? A little research and uninformed, dumbass internet opinion shows up a kinky side to the furry fellowship. God! Did I have an unnatural fetish? 'Heck, look at the percentage of these people who are gay, pansexual and the rest of it. Is that ME?'
Time for some self-reflection. Okay, some of that soul-ache did spring from the loins, I guess it's safe to admit that here - if not then where?
I don't have a gay bone in my body (...behave!), that's okay isn't it? Sure it is, and I have no qualms at all with the colourful mixture that we have today.
You can't move for drawings of hunky wolf-guys on the internet and you know, maybe I'm just jealous - oh for a bod like that! LOL.
I'm comfortable in my skin - but maybe I'd be even more comfortable in fur?
Thanks for reading this far, and I hope you'll all accept a nervous noob while I find my feet.. Scratch that... Paws.
J
(Yes, I did adapt this from my intro on ukFur
)
And a sheepish hi and uncertain wave to everyone on here.
It's going to be a bit of a journey for me, and frankly I'm excited and terrified to be taking this step.
I sort of suspected that there was something a little 'extra' about how I feel about things. Looking back on it now, I think that it's always been there and I'd shrugged it off as 'a bit weird'.
A couple of weeks ago I'd have described myself as fur-curious but that's evolved as I begin to get more comfortable with the new feelings that are really coming to the surface.
I'm a writer. I normally write in a different genre, but my publisher asked me to take part in an experiment. They sent me a detailed plot outline for a paranormal romance novel featuring a cute werewolf. I'm not going to go into details because:
A) I'm keeping the real me under the radar for now.
B) I think it's a bit rude to come onto a forum talking about my books like a bloody typical writer.
Maybe we can get onto that later when I feel a bit more confident and I've earned trust and respect.
I was a little unsure about this book at first, but oh my I just loved writing about this guy who turns into the most adorable doggo, and how a relationship with the woman he had initially ignored blossomed.
I'd fallen head over heels with the whole thing.
Of course, I'd done my research and found myself stepping ever deeper into the most delightful rabbit hole (no pun intended), discovering breath-taking works such as "Beastars", seeing Mr Peanutbutter in a whole new light, all of that.
What was happening to me? Why was I so bowled over by these characters?
I discovered that there was such a community as 'furries' - wow, so I wasn't the weird one. It wasn't strange that as a kid, I felt an ache in my soul when I saw Falkor the luck dragon in 'Neverending Story', Disney's Foxy Robin Hood... Okay, Bungle the Bear did nothing for me, so we'll let that pass!
Now, in my Fifties, those feelings are re-ignited. And you know what? It's comforting, I found myself smiling randomly at the thought. This is something new and exciting - where is it going to take me?
But to what end? A little research and uninformed, dumbass internet opinion shows up a kinky side to the furry fellowship. God! Did I have an unnatural fetish? 'Heck, look at the percentage of these people who are gay, pansexual and the rest of it. Is that ME?'
Time for some self-reflection. Okay, some of that soul-ache did spring from the loins, I guess it's safe to admit that here - if not then where?
I don't have a gay bone in my body (...behave!), that's okay isn't it? Sure it is, and I have no qualms at all with the colourful mixture that we have today.
You can't move for drawings of hunky wolf-guys on the internet and you know, maybe I'm just jealous - oh for a bod like that! LOL.
I'm comfortable in my skin - but maybe I'd be even more comfortable in fur?
Thanks for reading this far, and I hope you'll all accept a nervous noob while I find my feet.. Scratch that... Paws.
J
(Yes, I did adapt this from my intro on ukFur
